life's like this - avianto's journal

There is the time when you just need to left everything behind you and try to see those everything from a different point of view.

Relationship, friendship, love, care and honesty... I just need to see them from another perspective. So blurry to figure them out while you are inside them...

So... From one point of view I can call it over but it also a new beginning from a different angle.

Good bye... It's so hard to accept what you have done to me but maybe if I could see it from a different point of view I will understand it...

I am feeling numb right now... betrayal, confusion, anger, madness, fear, hate and all negative feeling are lingering inside my heart... Am I a fool for believing that everything will be just like yesterday? I need time to heal my wound... It hurt so deep it almost kill me... Adrienne by the Calling I've been thinking about you, my love. And all the crazy things that you put me through Now I'm coming around, Throwing it back to you Were you thinking of me when you kissed him Could you taste me when you licked his skin All the while / Read more …

Life is beautiful. Love is an enigma. Without Love there is not so much Life can be. Throughout the time, Love always proved itself to be the cause of joy, happines, development, sorrow, sadness, hatred or even destruction. Love is the most important thing in Life and it always be. Love is not and never be perfect. It is us, human being, that shape Love into near perfection. It is our responsibility as the humble adventurer in this Life. Love is not something we can describe. It is not the theory that needs to be analyzed. It also not the / Read more …

I am in Bandung right now. Ayu just finished her first final-thesis test and she's look quite all right... I think she will manage it well through out the second test (on Tuesday) and I wish and pray so. It's been a while... I am hanging around the campus. It sure bring back a lot of memories... I'll write about it later. Right now I had other things to do. Be back later. / Read more …

Ayu will have her final thesis examination this Saturday (16) and next Tuesday (19). She is very busy and very high tense right now with the preparation and my attitude and lack of understanding weren't help her a bit... =( I wish I could do more than just leave her alone busy with her thesis, but I guess that is what she want since everytime I want to help her in anyway it always turn out to be just another catastrophic disaster or emotional rollercoaster. Even stand close to her send a chill down to her spine... Seems pretty tense. / Read more …

Is there any Perfect Web Design? The Myth of Perfect Web Design Hmm... the article also make me realize 'is there any perfect relationship'? / Read more …

Why would I chase your shadow all my life. And be afraid of my own? I'd rather be with you. I'd rather not know. Where I'll be than. Be alone and convinced that I know. / Read more …

After know how much hurt the truth can be... I think I will be hanging here for a while... Desperate for changing. Starving for truth. Closer where I Started. Chasing after you. I'm falling even more in love with you. letting go of all i've held onto. I'm standing here until you make me move. I'm hanging by a moment here with you. / Read more …

What will you do if you find out about someone you love and care that hurts you to the deepest heart but in a way that you hurt them too also in their deepest heart? Why we always hurt the people we love the most? / Read more …

I was there... about 150 metres from the exact location of the bombing. I was about to eat lunch at the grhaXL (located behind Menara Rajawali building that adjacent to Marriott) building's cafetaria with a couple of my office's colleague when suddenly a very loud *thump* sound accompanied with a rather big earthquake that shattered the cafetaria. All the people inside suddenly went quiet for a couple of seconds and then ran away outward. At the outside, me and my colleague looking around tried to find the source of the loud noise and we saw smoke rising from Marriott building / Read more …

I always thought that Windows™' stability always depend on the phase of the moon. Now Mark Pilgrim's article convinced me that Windows also have a half-life and also showed me 147 steps (yes, one hundred forty seven) to install Windows XP in 5 hours or less. Now I am thinking about switching. / Read more …

Last Thursday I went with Ayu and her family to watch Konnyakuza's opera: Gauche the Cellist. Great show! It was funny, entertaining, light-heartening and really easy to 'feel' even if you don't understand Japanese. Well, it sure fulfill the request of the performer and director that you don't have to 'understand' the show... just 'feel' it... And it proved! And on Friday I went also with the same party to watch Jakarta Philharmonia Orchestra at Gedung Kesenian Jakarta (It's Jakarta Art Building in English). Good performance while it was not perfect but still a good one. Well, spending time with / Read more …

Firda, one of longest time Indonesian weblogger and one of, IMHO, the best "standard-but-still-beautiful-design" web designer (well, her website is one of the few that passed my standard W3C test last time I checked!>, is really need our help. Her mom is in the hospital right now and you know how expensive hospital's cost in Indonesia these days. If you want to help her, visit her website/weblog for details. updated: Firda's mother passed away on August 4th, 2003. My condolences with her and her family. / Read more …

I am one of the honored judge of Adikarya Desain Indonesia 2003 and starting today until August 3rd, 2003 I will judging the Corporate participant... What an honor... =) Of course I am tempted to run every website through W3C Validator but well... I am sure that no participant will pass the test... =P So I think I better concentrate on the guidelines: Content, Page Layout, Graphic Design, Navigation System, Functionality, and Overall Feel. Hmm, so I think it will be okay if Accessibility and Usability are sucks... *grin*. Oh well... if you already a long way beyond the border / Read more …