life's like this - avianto's journal

ied mubarak

for all moslem around the world... congratulation on your victory finishing the ramadhan.
may God accept and bless our fulfilling duty.

please, forgive me if i ever made any mistake including words, action or else.
and let us pray so we can meet another ramadhan... amen

the end of ramadhan today is the last day of ramadhan... the fasting month for moslem. i thank God for giving me strength to fulfill this duty and for giving me a month of blessing with all the good things happened to me this whole month. i will look forward for incoming ramadhan... God bless us all... / Read more …

christmas carnage... i am an indonesian citizen, live in indonesia on two big cities: jakarta and bandung. for those who stay tuned at the world news must know why i told you this fact... yes, it's been a christmas carnage here in indonesia... =( read this horrible news at cnn, channelnews asia and satunet (indonesian language). i am not a christian or catholic myself, but this is not a matter of religious only... it's a matter of humanity, human rights and solidarity. and i hate this thing happened in my beloved nation! for those who happened to be unfortunate enough / Read more …

another sight online... let me present you one website that give me 'the sight'... that expression i always use when i found a website that really captured my inner sense of something... it still contain a little of stuff, but from the way she's write and draw (you can find her sketches there) i believe that this will be one of the worth to visit site. encourage her, give her some spirit and i believe she will not dissapoint you. now... i am just thinking about making over this website, what do you think? could you give me some advice? / Read more …

i am home... home at last... well, i went from bandung at saturday but stay a night at my best friend's resting house at rancamaya, sukabumi... my best friend, budi, will study abroad to australia next month... i guess i will be miss him, because he is one of my best friend that i've ever had and now he's gone for two years... =( so we had fun there, chatting all night, enjoying the mountain's wind (and it's really chilled out!), watching tv together... sharing the moment. then today i went straight home, with my beloved car, girl and friend... / Read more …

opinion page... finished at last okay, i fixed the opinion page. feel free to spit out yours but please be responsible with it. i will not limit your words so it will be truly your opinion and of course indonesian language is always welcome... use it well and let us hope to learn something from it. / Read more …

going home... tomorrow i will be going home to jakarta... it's a whole week holiday season... well, i will gonna miss my cubicle for that week, but i'll be back to this lovely cubicle at 2nd of january till 22nd... ah, jakarta... the crowded, polluted, chaos and unbelievable city yet i still love it... jakarta, here i come... embrace me with your chaotic arm... i'll be there! / Read more …

drunk behind the wheel... ever heard the song 'out of my head' by fastball? "sometimes i feel like i am drunk behind the wheel, the wheel of possibility...however it may roll" that's exactly what i feel right now... there are many possibilities in front of me, but i am drunk and i can't choose which possibility that will give me the most advantage. i hate to admit it, but that is the reality. i am drunk... and the worst thing that i am rejecting all the help other people offering me... and i just don't realize that. i just shutdown / Read more …

loobylu and final fantasy ix just found this great website. great illustration and great layout... hmm, just thinking about put some of my drawing here... =) and thanks (again) to mr. powazek and his great creation: fray for mentioning claire's works. btw she's got another website. and i almost forgot that i've already finished playing final fantasy ix... man, that was one hell of great game ever!!! and what really catched my feeling is the main score of this fabulous game, 'melodies of life' written by nobuo uematsu. the lyric really captured my heart... find it on the link i / Read more …

it hurts... *sigh*, seems that my new story made someone felt terrible... =( sorry, my dearest... but i didn't mean to hurt your feeling. of course, the girl i mentioned in my last new story was special but you are somethin that i will not dare to compare it with anybody else, because you are... you. it just that i kinda felt like i had to pour my pain into some words... i just didn't expect that somebody that i love will get hurt by it. again, from the deepest of my heart i said; i am very sorry... / Read more …

new story (again) just read one of tyaz's poem then something hit my tiny little blue brain's cell... so i wrote a story... thanks tyaz, maybe you didn't realize how much your poem inspired me, but it did and it helped me relief some of the pain i felt inside... thanks again and keep on writing those beautiful poem... / Read more …

new story just write a new story... it's about me, my mom and a decision based on my love for her... enjoy it and if you feel like sharing, don't hesitate to mail me. / Read more …

errata the opinion page is not completed yet... i still tried to built a decent interface there. then i am sorry for the incompleteness there, i tried to find time to finished it soon enough. thank you. / Read more …

return of me whoa, it's been a week without web... and then i just realized that my domain (avianto.com) was vanished from the internet... oops, i forgot to pay the renewal... silly me.. =( so, i quickly pay it today but i don't know when the domain will be reactivated so i just cross my finger and hope for the best... =) hmm... it's almost holiday and i still have much to do... oh, i almost forgot... i am now preparing the new look for avianto.com for the incoming millenium (yeah, i am the one who believe that 2001 is / Read more …

episode I... the end i closed one of my chapter. i passed the final presentation... =) it felt great, it was just i let go one of the most heaviest burden in my life... it's not over yet... i still have to do one or two thing before i can graduated at february, but still the heaviest and hardest part was ended here. thank you to all of you that supported me all this time. thank you to my great mentor, mr. dr. ing. bagoes p. wirjomartono, without you i don't know if i could have the strength to keep / Read more …

the saga continue... at last... the final presentation was over... yes, it's over... end... but the waiting is not end up yet! why? because now it's the time to wait for the result... *sigh* yeah, yeah, i know i said that i don't care about the result... but still it's the part of the final presentation, right? it will not matter whatever the result is because i am already in trouble with my study limit... then if i passed i will get a degree soon, but if i don't, well... i don't get a degree. but i will still working / Read more …

wish me luck today is my final presentation day. today is one of the most important part in my life. today is the day i have to make a choice. today is the day that i can show the world that i can submit at least a small quote in the poem of life. today is something that i will not forget for the rest of my life... no matter the result. in fact, it seems that i don't care anymore about the result... i just want this to be over... if i succed then good, i will move on / Read more …

24 hours+ to the final presentation lots to do, but yet i am not finished anything... the synopsis didn't look too promising, my building model didn't look built already and my preparation for final presentation seems like it was only a dream that never come true... =( hmm, can i do it today? should i hope for a miracle to happen and magically change everything here? ... sometimes i believe in miracle but hoping for miracle is not what i used to do... yeah, it feels like hoping for something and doing nothing which i always hate to do... well, / Read more …

little prince looks like blogger lost my last post about yesterday... *sigh* see, i told you that something went wrong with blogger nowadays... =( oh well, i just want to tell you that i re-read little prince and still feel amazing by it. it has a great stories and from what i read it was the third most read book after Bible and Quran!... wow, that's cool, right? so i suggest you to rush to your local bookstore or library and find it and read it. i guarantee a satisfaction and if you already read it, well you know what / Read more …

feel like hit by a train i don't know why but today i feel like i were hit by a big and heavy train... i were so tired and so dumbfounded... *sigh*. maybe because i lost my confidence that my mentor will attend my final presentation... and that's mean i were alone through all the segment of final presentation, am i deserve this? i don't know... =((( and today i just don't know what to do... should i go home? should i shopping for clothes that i will wear at the final presentation? should i run and hide? should i / Read more …

what happened to blogger? is it just me, or anybody else feel it too? it's so hard to access blogger nowadays... anyone can help? / Read more …

aftermatch part 1 part 1 was finished... i was washed up, tired and really disoriented. now i am really tired and want to sleep but i can't... i don't know why but i felt to tired to sleep!!! my drawing was complete but not 100%... the perspective drawing was not fully retouched... *sigh*... what will be... will be... i am trying to sleep now... because tomorrow i must write the synopsis for my design... *argh* / Read more …

less than twelve hours... *sigh* sorry for the lack of updates recently, but i was tied down by my final presentation's preparation... *sigh* two hours of sleep a day really didn't help much... =( but at last, now i can sitting here, writing this because i am now in queue for plotting my drawing. in about an hour or less i must be going downstair and plot the last 6 pages of my drawing and that's make 12 pages total... not much but that the near best i could do. (if somebody out there know how to do the very / Read more …

mentally exhausted, physically beaten up i am tired... but my work seems like it will never end... *gross*. everytime i want to plot this stuff, it always came up with a new trouble... =( will i be able to finish it? i must though... but this stuff seems never finished everytime i look at it!!! argh... okay, back to work... please, be finished... be finished... i need a miracle right now. / Read more …